Seeley-Swan Accounting

Here on this sun-dappled summer highway, I tally for myself the dreams I’ve left behind. The ones outmoded by age and circumstance.  The ones that were always more fantasy than prospect:

A sturdy bungalow;

An RV – an abominable travel cliché, Dave assured me;

A chaise lounge on which to retire and read;

The sweeping, nipped-in-waisted peignoir to go with;

A homestead cabin;

A glass house;

The books I wrote in my mind as we drove to the North Fork, never transposed from mind to memoir;

A slow dance with Ben;

A two-step with Dave;

Every Montana graveled track heading up into a gulch;

One more night with Dave on the deck, the universe alight with stars and the river’s song.

And the luminous life I’ve gotten to live:

New York and Faust;

Gettysburg – the battlefield at dusk and the cemetery at dawn;

Trooping the Color;

The sweet peace of cocktail hour with Bob;

Sixty miles of Glacier peaks going to sleep in lavender light;

Singing the Messiah;

The heady shiver of out-thinking and out-speaking a debate foe, a Forest Supervisor, a Park Service superintendent and a mining stooge;

Ella – warm against my shoulder as we read;

Washed-in-the-blood hymns belted out on piano and trumpet;

The lights of a Brewers’ game backstopped by Mount Helena;

Standing on this earth where Chief Plenty Coups, Lincoln, a dying Union soldier, a Renaissance surgeon, and a Greek philosopher stood;

Russian olive trees;

The Grand Canyon;

Dave at the raft’s oars;

Holding hands with those I cherished as they left this earth;

Tom Govan’s laconic and priceless praise;

Honor songs to the heartbeat of drumming;

A cat’s soft paw;

A tender rabbit nose at midnight. ©